Okay current love life status: in a relationship (smooth sailing? I dunno) we seldom meet coz I hav exam n studies commitment n he wan to upgrade himself so he enrolled in some courses so our meet up is getting less frequent. Last time I used to whine n lose my temper on why we getting lesser meet ups bt now im completely okay wif it. I noe its not a good sign bt well, life goes on. I wont forgo the things I wan to do jus for him n tis applies to him too. So ya, life goes on. Entering into 22nd mth, my current reaction "ohh". Kinda pathetic I noe. Haha Sometimes I had a really bad thinking *sometimes it might bet better if we part our ways* Sometimes tis tot already flash or came thru my mind. Bt is sometimes onli lahhh. Of coz sometimes I also wish to hav lovey dovey days lik those in the past. Bt see how lahh. Haha. He is still someone special in my heart lah :)

Current employment status: okay I gt a job in delifrance as a qa since June'14. Ya a qa job. Haha. As mentioned in my previous blog post, I always wanted to try working in a food industry. Ya im in now. Worked for almost a yr n im okay wif it. Jus tat there are still some amazing actors n gossipers office, the usual irritating ppl. Its really difficult for me to poker face de person I dislike so sometimes it gets abit tiring facing those ppl. On a bright side, I've learnt a lot. Apart from the qa knowledge (aiya actually no need knowledge also can work de lah. Hahaha) Im slightly better in looking at ppl, as in wat is their agenda in doing certain things. Its pretty scary bt tis is de sad hard fact.

Current studies status: im now taking a break from studying econs (ya I retaking tis module) Im having a bad headache which comes suddenly so decided to rest my brain for awhile. Exams is next wk. Ya im scared (kinda). Perhaps im giving myself too much stress tats why im having tis headache right now. Nowadays im been traveling to np to study. Ya a poly wif all sorts of youngsters. I feel inferior. I wan to be de invisible person tat nobody will notice. I dunno why I hav a fear within me. I been thru poly I noe nobody will giv a fk bout me. Bt I still fear ppl will notice me. I've been studying , practicing n practicing... I really really hope my depleted energy, strength, brain cells n whatsoever will be worth it. I'll jus aim higher n do my best :)

Other status: I saw him at cathay last wk. He walked past me. My 1st reaction was to sae hi to him. I didnt hide or dun wan to hide. I wan to face him. To my surprise, wen I saw him I didnt hav tat fear within me. Im actually okay wen I saw him. Dunno he purposely or really didnt notice me, I didnt feel dejected. Although at the initial 5min I was hoping we can sae hi to each other. Bt after tat I jus continue my conversion wif wanwen. Then I realize smth. I dun miss him anymore. The things I miss are the things we been thru tgt. I miss the good memories I had wif him, bt not the person anymore. Im relieved :) so next time wen I see him holding a gal's hand, I might actually feel happy for him. To me, he is still special, he is still de nice guy. The onli difference is tat I can finally declare tat I hav actually got over him :)

Im 24 tis yr. Im learning alot things outside textbook. Frankly speaking, I dun lik it. I still prefer the simple world tat I prefer n wan to hav. Bt tis is life, nobody will consistently giv u sweet in life. Mayb the least I can do is tat I dun giv ppl any bitterness in their life (trying lah) haha

I wan to do sooooo many things after exam. Ya lah I feel so trapped during tis period. I wan to do hiking, baking, running, gymnming, slacking haha. Actually I jus wan to be happy, do things tat will make me happy. 

My current goal: stay happy, live happily :D