Today is 元宵节. Went to hav kfc breakfast wif jie jie, didi n nicholas. After tat, didi went to sch then the rest of us went to ntuc for grocery shopping. We hav de impromptu idea of making homemade yu sheng. We wanted to buy de prepacked 1 initially bt changed our mind le. Went back home, slacked n helped to slice all de ingredients.

Mummy's 刀功 is fantastic! Seriously she sliced de carrot n radish until soooo thin. She also teach me how to slice until super thin. I sliced de japanese cucumber. Although not perfect as mummy, bt still okay lah. Haha there are always room for improvements mah.

Mummy told me she also thinking to go chinatown buy a set of yu sheng de. We really 心灵相通 :) Tonight's dinner was jus fantastic! Braised mushroom! Steamed chicken wif mummy specialty ginger sauce, stir fry prawns, stir fry broccoli, abalone and lastly de homemade yu sheng!!!!! Wahahahaha. De yu sheng really gt pretty good praises lehh. Super crunchy n fresh. De standard wont lose to restaurant loh. In fact, de whole meal gt restaurant standard. Hahaha

Super full. Didnt had any rice though. Bt alot meat lah. Hahaha

Didi shared a superrrrr lame joke wif us:

糖果是公的还是母的？

是母的
因为它生蚂蚁

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Hahaha okay I enjoyed my 元宵节. I hope my loved ones enjoyed it too! :)





Oh ya, I almost forgt bout it.

I dreamt of him!!!!! Lik soooo real can!?!?!?!? Omg omg omg
De dream was in nyp (shall not elaborate. Hahaha)
"Dreams are de opp of reality" hmm I dunno lah. Bt I dreamt of him im happy enough le :)


                                                             Homemade yu sheng

                                                              Sumptuous dinner! Yum yum :D:D






i am who i am
10:43 PM

Today literally slpt almost de whole day. Still feeling quite slpy now *yawns*

Went for blood donations today. Wen I crossed de rd to hsa (note: already green man), a car dashed infront of me! Lik literally! It dashed n horned soooo loudly until I really jerk on the rd. Wah it was damnnnnnn dangerous leh!! Bt I gt abit at fault also. I was looking at my phone. Okay lesson learnt! No looking at phone wen crossing de rd!

I was so scared. Seriously. My heart still thumping so hard wen I reach hsa. Immediately I told my sis n wanwen bout it. Lols both asked me whether I saw de car plate or not.haha I still scared coz my heart thump too fast then inappropriate to donate blood. Hahaha

Wanted to buy smth to eat coz I scared my iron not enough ( alot of times le) bt luckily my iron count is still within the acceptable range. Then yeah I can finally donate blood liao. I think 3rd or 4th times.

Jus now I was thinking if really I kena hit, wat would be de consequences n result ah. Seriously soooo scary. Hahaha

After blood donation, I ran abit to chase de bus. Lucky enough, I managed to catch the bus. Bt I felt giddy, lik going to faint lik tat. Think shld be lack of blood then will lik tat de ba. Lucky enough, nth happen :)

Went home, did de norm - sleep! Hahaha bt gt kena nagged by mummy to tidy up de wardrobe lah. Hahaha slpt for 2+hrs then go pack up. Super nua hahaha

As usual after blood donation, I felt good! :D my next available period for blood donation is may. Bt I'll drag until dunno wen then do another donation agn loh.

Tml is 元宵节. Dunno mummy will cook wat nice nice food lehhh. Hahaha planning to swim tml morning. See whether can wake up early n not nua to swim loh. Hahaha


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i am who i am
9:01 PM

Went site tis morning wif colleagues. Asked a colleague to inspect my area wif me (some area in bukit batok) I was scared to face de licensees there. Haiz seriously, speaking actually we are not at fault wat. Wat for scared of them leh. Mayb I bth them not listening to me n wan to find fault wif me ba. Needa learn to be strong, regardless to licensees or colleagues.

Today oem meeting, by de stupid ov. Argh seriously I hate her. She damn fake! Why mus she sit in for the meeting. Also no need her de. N add so many extra n ridiculous things. She really siao 1 loh. Anyways, time faster pass then woooo!! :D Haha I really need try out other things also de mah. Haiz work seriously never ending lehhh

Tonight rain heavily, really heavily. Lik 蒙蒙细雨 seriously I love tis feeling. Staying at home while I was raining heavily. Its lik letting my rain wash away all my -ve :) it somehow feels quite good actually :))

Kkz I shall stop here. Time to watch 警徽天职 2. Didnt expect it to be quite n nice n tensed up sometimes. Good job Singapore tv producer! :D

i am who i am
9:07 PM

1st day of work after cny. It was initially okay. Ya abit slack lah. Haha bt after I send out de hygiene minutes, my mood drop lik shit.

Anything jus sae infront of me lah. I really dun lik ppl talk behind my back. He wasnt lik tat, or shld I sae I didnt noe him tat well so didnt expect him to be lik tat. I told my colleague n myself. I need to be numb infront of him. I cant express anything infront behind or watever lah. Wanna master until his actions totally wont affect me. Haha

Went out wif huiwen n yaya. Im so glad they agreed for the impromptu dinner date. We chatted alot as usual. Haha I told them how tired I felt wen in the office. They actually noe how I feel. They really understand me.

Haha actually I also quite easy to understand mah. Im someone hu seldom hide de feelings n let it allllll out. Lik tat then shiockkk mahhhh.

Haha. Tml is jus another working day. I jus hope for a smooth day. Tats all! :)

:D

i am who i am
12:23 AM

Actually quite a boring Sunday. Went out to bugis wif wanwen. Had everything wif fries. Hahaha while eating, I was actually worrying bout my work! Damn! Hahaha I dunno de uncertain, de no v good feeling stayed there for quite some time.

Felt better wen we almost finish our lunch. I seriously hate tis feeling!!! Minutes haven done! Sux! Colleagues sae bbt alot complaint! Sux! Need to face de stupid ov! Sux! Aiya, dun care lah dun care lah dun care lah. Work sux work sux loh.hahaha

Went for upper body massage. Oh man, I had a serious super stiff neck! It was sooooo painful until I almost screamed! Hahaha luckily I jus tahan-ed it. Wanted to go to the national museum for some mange exhibition over there bt couldnt find de place :( wanna see exhibition of shin chan, conan and see whether gt the chance to see him or not (shhh) hahaha

End up went to fort canning park for a round, literally a round loh! Wanwen lah, in a rush mah. Nvm mah, still gt next time de lah. Haha bt fort canning park really quite a nice place to walk arnd lah.

Settled wif sim application. I still scared kena rejected. Seriously! My confidence lvl sux lik shit. My result sux lik shit. So I really dunno wat is de outcome of shitty combinations. Haha

Lastly, I do hope de ppl I noe hav work life balance n still happy n healthy :)

i am who i am
7:21 PM

Im so bored at home.

Wanting to watch show bt also sianz. Browsed thru jobstreet. Jus realized tat actually there isnt much thing a diploma grad can do. Seriously, wen I looked thru jobstreet, de lvl of confidence drop gradually ( fatality!) jus lik I do any other things. Pls help me build up my confidence!!!

Even ppl praise me (though seldom), I still doubt it, lik seriously. I jus dun think im deserve those praises I had.

Kkz. Im seriously bored at home. Gonna find some entertainment liao. Hahaha

Today is 初七, 人日! Happy bday everyone! :))



i am who i am
3:11 PM

Omg. 2 more rest days to work. Seriously no no no no no feel for workkkk lehhhh. Hahaha

Sis rom is over. Everything was fine. It seemed lik it happened wif fast mode on, too fast until I cant imagine they are married. During de solemnization, everything was jus lik those in tv. I nearly wanted to laugh it out. Haha. The officially married couple said tat it was so fast, so unreal. Well, still congrats them :D

I was de so called photographer on tat day. Ya some photos were taken. Their wedding cert, de family photos. I was happy looking at those photos. I hope my family felt happy too :)

Recently I changed my fb profile pic. I noe is isnt smth big deal to post bout. Bt tis small act scare me off! Ppl starting to lik my newly changed profile pic. I was happy to hav so many likes. Bt I realized I kept comparing others profile pic likes n mine. Omg tis is absolutely childish!!! Yucks!! I need to stop tis. I dun lik tis comparing thingy appearing in my mind. Kkz calm down n change for the better :)

Okay. Work!!! Argh!!! Although its already dragging me to go work every single day, bt it will be worse wen 1 of my colleague return back to the office. I need to face him. Or I'll rephrase to I'll need to pretend nth happen n act as comfy wen he not arnd in office.

Seriously speaking, the 2 wks without him in office was actually bless to me. I can really be my ownself n dun feel any uncomfy simply coz I no need to see him. Bt good things, good days dun last long. Wat can I do. I can onli act jus normally lik before n faster find a new job n change environment. I wouldnt noe whether the change of working environment is a good or a bad 1. Bt I can certain is tat, I've pushed myself for a change, a change to be a better me :)

Kkz. Tats all for today! Gonna explore jobstreet n my hk show le.hahaha

Nitez :))

i am who i am
10:19 PM

Whr shld I start. I tot I haven been posting blog for jus mths. Bt my last post was a yr+ ago. Kkz time for an update.Okay.im a newly working adult now.working in tis stupid company for 1.5yrs. It was good initially bt wen I was kena transferred, shit happened and happening everyday.

Seriously its dragging me to go to office, to work every single day facing all de shit all arnd me. All de politics, all de micro manage are seriously making me crazy day by day. Wat is hanging me is actually 1-2 I wouldnt sae colleagues, bt frends.bt im certain even wif de support given to me, it wouldnt be pushing me for long. Im still young, I still wan to pursue diff career. I still wan to try out other things. I still haven giv up to work in a food company, to work as my dream job. Tat would be so fantastic.Its still cny period n I jus came back from msia. I can sae tat it is a fruitful trip other than those foodies goodies n ang pow :)

The journey from msia back to home isnt a short 1 so it gav me time to think loads of things n thus decided to blog bout it.....On the way back to Singapore, I was watching hk show as usual. After tat, I looked at the sky. It filled wif stars, literally. Mayb not fully filled bt it is smth which I wouldnt gt to see in Singapore, such a urbanized country. It was soooo beautiful, so romantic. No wonder they always sae it is romantic to see sky of stars. I tot of jccy wen I saw tat beautiful view. I was imaging.omg I imagined to see tat beautiful view wif him!!!!! It was so beautiful. I mean the tot was beautiful as well. HahaI noe nth will happen lah. These few yrs he kept appearing on n off in my mind. I guess de onli reason coz I structured him as a superrrrr nice person n he didnt really sae it out mah, lik verbally. So I still would hav such thoughts loh. Actually these thoughts makes me happy sometimes lah :) bt is okay, its jus my tot wat.I recently saw his fb post. He posted smth lik frends become strangers. Tat would be me n him loh. Bt aiya, I also gt alot frends tat become strangers. Bt the strangers btw me n him are lik totally strangers, literally strangers, no communication, no interaction, not even a hi or bye. Its kinda sad rite. Aiya, me loh. Suan le lah. Let bygones be bygones loh.Anyways, back to topic. I doubt his frend cum stranger is talking bout me as well. So jus take it easy loh.Now, my family. Kkz I was saying I've become a working adult for a period of time already rite.

Kkz, my papa start talking to me bout giving him some 家用 loh. I was thinking u n I are working n u obviously earn more than me lah still need me giv for wat. Its not lik I totally nv contribute any. I did giv to mummy mah, simply coz she's not working loh. As yrs pass by, I think my papa become more materialistic which I super ultra dun lik bout it :( bt after the thoughts during de journey back home, I realized tat he is my papa. My papa tat always care for me, for his family. No matter how materialistic or how money minded he become ( opps hahaha), he is still n will be my best papa. I always rmb he initiate to fetch me home on the 1st day of my poly. It always sweeten my heart by thinking bout it.We didnt dine out tgt as often. Bt wen its jus me n him eating tgt, I really can feel tat he really wan more father-daughter bonding session. I always tell myself to always create more bond btw me n him, bt it always turned out otherwise. I tried to take de initiative to talk to him bt he somehow will reply it back sarcastically, which I hated de most. Bt suan le, he is my papa mah 

Okay. My bro. Wah super irritating. Super high ego, super high self centered. Seriously I cant take it. N super easily gt hot tempered. Seriously bth max!! Why does he always thinks tat he is always right, he doings is always for de good. Walau!! Seriously typical leo! Forever dun listen to other ppl opinions de. Hope he can really grow up n learn things, listen to ppl opinion n words n not always saying things which hurt ppl. Really 一针见血 Im trying hard to stay strong n try to correct him wif his always thought of onli his thinking is correct.Alright! I shall stop here. I've enjoyed de cny cele in msia n still slpy too though.

Haha tml my sis rom. Woohoo!! Nv really been to the rom before leh. It will be another new experience loh.hahaha kkz time for my hk show as usual :)N agn, long time nv write liao. Wish for a better tml, or rather a better ltr :D hahahahaha



i am who i am
7:02 PM