y let the star lead my wa

* Wednesday, November 26, 2008 *

Woo..finally finish the proposal.I seriously overestimated myself.Ytd i left 1/4 of the proposal,i tot i can finish it within 1 or 2 hrs.Bt i took 4hrs to finish it!HAHAS.

CAPTAINS BALL!Tot would be hectic as our class need to play 4 games.It turned out quite pleasant coz the weather was quite cooling.Won 3 games.The class tat we lose to is strong, ya strong.Was satisfied wif the result. =) Great work FS0803 :)) same to FS classes.You all played well :)

Reached home,back to reality.I was tired so i jus lie on my bed(of coz i bathed).Mummy scolded coz she dun wan me to do my work in the middle of the night.Used to it le lah.Bt i think tonight i might finish it quite late coz i really hav no idea of how to do.

OMG!Papa has become from bad to worse!He pamper summer 10x or even 100x more than pampering his own children!Im so mad at it so do didi.Hahas.Not fair loh.Why papa so bias de.So jealous loh.Aiya,i think i lost the pamper from papa coz summer is WAY TO CUTE le.Hahahas.

Back to my reportss le.Tat's all folks. =)

i am who i am
9:30 PM

* Monday, November 24, 2008 *

Woke up almost 2pm.Omg!I myself also cant imagine loh.Slept at 4am woke up 2pm!!!10hrs of slp.Madness!

Ran out of foolscap,pen no ink.Wanna ask bernice company me go popular bt she nv pick up the phone.Sadded.Lazy to go alone too.So partially slacked at home.Did cell bio n bits of proposal then jia hao called.He wanna go to ntuc so asked for accompany coz i also need to go mah.

Jia hao lik auntie.Hahaha.Bought so much things bt amazingly,the tot cost less than $20 despite the damn rising of price of everything in tis world.Jia hao planned to cook pasta.Congrats him for the success :) Went to mac.He bought the maga meal set.Mac spicy.I was impressed coz 1 piece of the meat i bth le.He can even take 2!Pro.Bt until the last few bites,he also bth le.Hahas,expression v funny.

Reached home.Watched chn 8 show till 10pm.Sis called,asked me bring summer for walk.Damn sianz lah.So called jia hao to company me since we live so near.Hahas.PS:sry to call at the wrong time.

Getting sleepy.Nitez

i am who i am
12:51 AM

* Saturday, November 22, 2008 *

Watched Beverly hills chihuahua wif yt ww n bx.Lazy to elaborate further.Ya the movie v nice funny n most importantly the leads are adorable!!!Hahas.I lik the german shepherd.I think he/she is v pretty.Nice ending.

Bought 2 christmas cards.Pretty nice n well decorated cards although it's slightly ex.Reached home.Bathed,was slacking.Fell asleep while smsing n watching tv.Hahahas.

Didn't wan to start work coz v tired.Tml will start de.

Tat's all folks.

i am who i am
10:49 PM

* Thursday, November 20, 2008 *

I'll blog the happeningd from mon till wed.Beware of the length of tis post.

Mon 171108
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO MISS NG PEY WEN!!! =)
Okay,let's start the proper.The nightmare for mon,phy quiz!!!Everyone was choinging for the quiz.After the 1hrs maths lecture,murphy yiting wanwen bixue shihui alex me went library to study until 1140am i suppose.Seriously was choinging de loh.Luckily i studied vectors and kinematics at home le.So onli left forces.Forces ain't tat easy as some ppl tot loh.It's damn diffucult + the lecturer is sucky so it's worse.

The quiz!Eh,it was okay lah.All based on wat we've learnt loh.Nothing much to elaborate.

Tue 181108
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST FATHER!!! =)))
Prepared a card for papa.Hope he lik it.Haha.

Biostats quiz.Shitness!Probability,another topic im weak at.Studied lah,bt slacked bits coz really no mood to study.

Woo!The quiz!The teacher damn smart,she purposely prepared 2 sets of qtns so we cannot copy... managed to ans part of the qtns.Prepared to die loh.Sianz,sadded.

Had captains ball wif FS0802 after sch agn.Didn't hav the mood to play so jus anyhow loh.so do shihui.So we jus walked instead of running bout for tat ball.The game ended early.Was not as hectic as last wk coz last wk was really hiong de loh.Hahas.

Bernice sms me,said tat she was in nyp.LOLS.Tot she was at south canteen,bt she was at another side of the sch =.= Sry wanwen,hai u walk all the way from south to north canteen.Chatted wif her.Thinking of going back home wif bernice de coz she wanna to tour nyp.LOLS.Hahas.She was wif her frend,jasmine lee.Woo,coincidence.I asked her whether bernice call her by name or by surname coz the stupid bernice always call me kan de.Mei li mao!Hahahas.

Train home.Was super tired,so as per normal,fall asleep in the train.

Wen i was going to slp,yiting suddenly talked to me bout songs.So we jus chat loh.We chatted bout the muttons too.Hahas,she let me hear it.So funny loh.I let my sis listen the apologize the version.It's damn funny.You guys should go listen if u haven.Whenever we talked bout 98.7FM de muttons,yiting sure super high de.HAHA,cant blame her coz muttons really too good,too funny le lah.

Slept at 230am i think.

Wed 191108
Start sch 12pm.Shoick!Hahahas.Nv pack bag on the previous day coz i tot i would wake up early n pack bag.Bt i slept till 1045am.Gonna be late,coz didn't prepare anything.Cham loh.Grab a shirt n shorts from the wardrobe and changed loh.Ask mummy helped me prepare breakfast-rice dumpling(zhong zi).Finished my breakfast,walked to mrt station bt rather a faster pace.Bt at the end,i didn't late for class -.-

Had comm skills bout the report writing i suppose.Had lunch at koufu after the lesson.Went home wif yiting after lunch.OMG!It was raining heavily loh.Lukily we wore slippers.Coz slippers wet also nvm de wat.Bt the floor smooth + my slippers smooth = no friction,so easy to fall,bt nv fall.Lucky for me loh.

Went to the top storey of the carpark to play wif summer wif sis n bro,coz there more spacious mah.Tat's why lah.Hav loads of fun playing wif summer.Hahas.Love her loads.Sis asked me whether i like summer or not.I dun wan to ans,dunno why.I like her lah,bt mummy dun lik,so i really dunno how.Think tml there might be s fierce arguement so i dun wish to go back home so early.I wan to avoid the arguement or else i sure will emo de loh.

Cant resist of not liking summer loh,coz she is so cute n pretty.Jus lik a baby. =)

Reporting time: 2.40am,it's time for me to slp le.Nitez

i am who i am
2:10 AM

* Tuesday, November 18, 2008 *

I wonder if u still remember tat promise.

i am who i am
11:43 PM

* Sunday, November 16, 2008 *

Some mus be puzzled why i didn't continue my days of changing myself.I told myself its kinda useless n i think i hav a little or jus a slight change ba.So i didn't wait wait the full month to stop.

did reports today,bring summer down for walk,v tiring.

Tat's all folks. =)

i am who i am
2:20 AM

* Friday, November 14, 2008 *

面对外人她总是可以有说有笑，可以拿自己离开玩笑，会为周围带来许多的欢笑。几乎没有人看过她犹豫的样子。她总是给人们一种亲切感。从来都不会对朋友发脾气。所以很多人都很喜欢和她朋友。她会保护自己的朋友胜过自己。这就是在外头的她。

但是所有的朋友都不知道还有另一面的她。在家时，她时常耍孤僻，不和家人沟通。而且还很情绪化，动不动就发脾气，动不动就哭，根本就像只软弱的小猫，需要别人去保护她，呵护她。这就是内心最深处的她。

你会和她做朋友吗? 你会同情他吗？

i am who i am
8:44 PM

* Thursday, November 13, 2008 *

Finally i wrote another essay.Tis essay took me dunno how many wks coz sem 2 start le mah,busy le.Okay,hope u do enjoy reading it.

永不抹掉的疤痕

不要！不要靠近我！不要！救命啊！根本就没有人听得到我的叫声。这时的我真的感到很无奈，很无助。我知道在这片荒野的草丛，根本就没有人会来救我，没有人会经过这里。但是我只能大叫求救或许才能脱离险境。但我的叫声惹火了其中的一名匪徒，他拿起了一把刀，向我的右腿砍下去。他还把我打得偏体鳞伤，然后把我的衣服撕烂，叫他的兄弟一个一个的凌辱我。那时的我简直是生不如死。

当其中一名匪徒要“开始”时，我就听见熟悉的声音。原来是伙伴们以及警犬。伙伴们把那些匪徒给逮捕了。这时的我才松了一口气，但是我的内心还是怕怕的，怕他们又会在凌辱我。突然有个人从我的后方抱我。我还以为那般匪徒，我拼命的挣扎，但是还是摆脱不了我后方的那个人。这时，听见一把熟悉的声音。原来是凯明。他紧紧地抱着我，安抚我，叫我不用担心，说他永远会在我的身边。我的眼眶的已经不能承受那么大量的泪水，便流了下来，泪一直地流，一直地流。我紧紧抱着凯明，不希望他离开我。

过后，我便被带去警句问话。问话的过程十分痛苦，因为这令我想起那些痛苦回忆。还有那永远抹不掉的疤痕。上头要我休息一阵子才回去工作岗位，让我的情绪稳定下来。但是偶尔还会回想起那件事。幸亏有凯明那么无微不至的照顾我，我才可以恢复。

几个月后，我的情绪稳定下来了，也把那件事情摆在脑后不去想了。我也回到了工作岗位。心情也较好了。这一天，我们接到任务要去调查有关一名男子虐待他的家人的档案。当我们抵达现场时，我就看见那名男子拿起一把刀，像是要砍他的老婆似的。我愣住了，没有办法去阻止他。幸亏另一名同僚阻止了他才可以避免这次的悲剧。

我真的吓呆了！那件事情又浮现在我的脑海中了。为什么我不可以把它给忘掉，为什么，为什么！！我尝试去控制自己的情绪，但是我始终还是做不到。看见那名女士被自己的丈夫虐待，我什么都不能做，我真觉得我很没有用，根本就不适合当警察。但是我没有作出明显的举动来表现出那时的情绪。

回到警局，坐在自己的座位前，动都不动，就只坐在那里。过了一阵子后，我去厕所，掀开我的裙子，看见了那条疤痕，那条永不抹掉的疤痕。我真的很讨厌那条疤痕，真的很想把它弄掉，但是理性一面的我告诉我这是不可能的。

我从厕所出来后，滚烫的泪一直在流，一直在流。为什么，为什么！！我真的不想要这条疤痕。真的不想要！这时凯明就从我后方抱住我，安抚着我，像是要永远要保护我。

i am who i am
12:58 AM

* *

Woo,things really change.Bt i hope things wont be as bad as i imagined.The days in sem 1 already over,meaning we cannot restart all over agn.Now i jus hope tat things maintain the way they meant to be.Hope the situation not worsen.I jus wan PEACE lah.Hahas.I think ppl hu noe me will noe tat i always go for happy de lah.Haha,simple as tat,so ya lah.HAPPY :) lik tis smile.

Ppl do sae,things change,people do change,bt yet some things will not change.Ya,there's smth not changing.It stays there.Haiz.It's quite funny loh.I wanted to let go,bt i jus dun wan to.I noe hanging on there i tough bt i still do it.It's v 讽刺loh.Hahas.

I cant be the gong type anymore le,i mus be alert.I mus de.Life is getting much more tougher n hectic too.I dun wan anyone to collapse.

Hahas,partially venting time over.

Tml bio day.Hope is a good day lah,lik hu dun wan lik tat. =.=

i am who i am
12:02 AM

* Tuesday, November 11, 2008 *

Sch was rather pleasant.Lectures was okay,bit boring bt still can handle.Biostats tut,i didn't mean to slp or nv pay attention during the class bt i was too tired le.I also dunno how will i survive during next wk's biostats quiz.Haiz.

Had captains ball session wif our neighbour FS0802.Didn't noe them well so wen was asked to played wif them,my reaction was lik "oh,next tue ah?Okay loh".Nothing much.Bt after the 1st game,things changed.The bonds between 2 classes are closer,i guess.All v nice lah.Was having a fun bt tiring time until the security guard came n told us tat we were not supposed to play there.So we mus change venue.Some went off.14 ppl stayed.

Changed to tennis court.Slacked for a while then start the game.Have lots of stops in between coz we also need to rest de mah.So funny loh.Woon ching kept falling down .I think she too high le.Hahas.02 de ppl can also be rough de loh.Hahas.Bt overall was fun lah.OMG!!!I finally noe wat's wanwen profession le!The ball catcher!Hahas.She so li hai loh.She can catch the ball in dunno how many goals straight.Hahahas.Was tired bt it's really fun lah.

Went home wif shihui.She told me Thawit from 02 planned tis de.Haha.Thx =) Had fun coz he took the initiative to plan tis.Will be playing next wk too.Chatted wif shihui.She worked in ntuc too,as cashier too.Coincidence.HAHA.Told her bout the happenings in ntuc.

Trained home was usual.Except today i was super tired,i fall asleep until i almost going to marina bay.Hahahas.Reached home,played wif summer for awhile then went to bathe.Watched the 9pm show until i fall asleep.Luckily i woke up early lah.

I'll jus stop here coz i need to start the proposal thingy le.Haiz.Sianz lah.
Tired+sleepy+sianz = Me

i am who i am
10:21 PM

* Saturday, November 8, 2008 *

It's fri means i can relax a few hrs b4 sat.Sat is my relax-study day.Bt as for tml,i gt alot of tut to be done,so..haiz.

Met up wif cutie catherine.Saw jabez wen boarding thr train.Chatted lik yishun which was 2 stops from yck.LOLS.Then headed to boon lay to meet cutie catherine.Passed her her present.(my whole family helped me lot in wrapping the present.Hahas.I noe catherine will lik it.Hahaha.

Gt the tickets for rec.Walked around jp loh.We dunno walked how many rounds le.LOLS.Saw
meiping,xingyi and xian mei.Hahas.At jp also can find familiar faces.So coincidential loh.

After for dunno how many rounds around jp,we finally entered the cinema.The theatre quite small n warm too.Had the commerials as usual.Then the movie started.At 1at i didn't noe the movie started.Hahaha.I was slow lah.

The front part was okay lah,peaceful and boring.Until after lik 10min or so,OMG!It's the real thing le.The excitement came.The fear and horror nv stopped until the end of the movie.Similar to 4bia ba.Im not referring to the storyline.Im referring to the fear i had while watching the movie.Luckily the movie onli 80min,or else,hahas.Overall i think tis movie was good bt the storyline abit old and the ending was not tat good.Bt i mus admit the excitement filled was at least 70%.Shall further elaborate more bout the movie.Let the people to experience themselves.

After tat movie,i invited catherine to home to hav dinner.Heard catherine saying tat she's scared of dogs bt i didn't noe she's really afraid of dogs.Her reaction v cute leh.Hahas.Went to the playground,chatted for awhile then walked her to bus stop.Went back,to the 'garden' area.Saw summer wif few frends.Can see tat she really enjoyed herself .Glad to see tat. =) I really begin to lik her loh.She's so pretty loh.

Went home,bathe and here im blogging.Im so sleepy loh.Tml gonna do as much hw i can.Tis really mus depend on my mood coz last sat i 5+pm then started my work.Haha.I noe im a sinner.

Was fun going out wif cutie catherine. =))

i am who i am
1:01 AM

* Wednesday, November 5, 2008 *

Had communication skills n proj 1 presentation.Today cs lesson rather interesting coz was talking bout the attire.It was interesting lah.Had proj 1 presentation.Was kinda of embarassed coz was going to present to the whole cohort.Siao loh.Grp by grp,they present,from FS0801 all theyw ay to my class FS0803.Lucky enough,ppl startedto leave after thye present.They were allowed to leave lah.

Supposed to hav captains ball match at 3pm de bt it was raining so they sae wait until 3.30pm to check the weather was still suitable to play or not.The match was cancelled at the end.I was pleased coz i was not feeling v well today n dun hav any spare energy to use.

At around 4+pm,it's out turn to present.I was bits of nervous lah bt the overall was okay coz onli a few grps in our class stayed over.The presentation went well,i suppose.We do create some humour so tat the presentation wont be so dead lah.And we succeed by sacrificing bixue n me as the clown.Hahas.

Reached home.My body lik in sauna.I was feeling super warm and cold lah.I lied on the sofa for quite a long time before going to bathe.I seriously hav barely any energy to stand up and walk to the bathroom.After the bath and dinner.I was lie on my bed,wore my socks,cover myself wif blanket without the fan on.After a while,i actually fell asleep.LOLS.

Mummy asked to me swallow 2 panadol bt i said i okay le coz really dun feel lik swallowing 2 pills.Bt i did swallow 1 failed the other 1.Hahahs.I told yiting im half recovered coz i managed to swallow 1 pil.Was feeling warm now n abit cannot concentrate.LOL.

Hahas,i finished the report early.The 1st time.Hahas,an achievement?lols.Will be going to read ytd's lecture agn coz i somehow dun understand wat the biochem lecture talking bout loh.

Haiz,she didn't come home agn.Seriously im worried and angry lah.She dunno her family are actually worrying bout her.She didn't even tell us or watever.Pls,do come home.Please.

I actually spent onli $2.40 today.Woo!Record.Hahahs.Mus continue tis good habit.Actually was saving money for alot of upcoming things.Sianz.Hahas

i am who i am
10:20 PM

* Tuesday, November 4, 2008 *

I was almost late coz of a dead rat.
Well,ytd wen i was going to sch as normal.Wen i walked till the road to the oppo,i saw a deat rat!Oh my!It's lik damn gross lah.Then i recalled wen i saw a deflated rat at my hse nearby.It's damn disgusting can.Okay,link back to today.I dunno if tat rat still there or not so i took slightly longer pathway to tiong.Reached the control station 8.08am,is considered late le.Need to wait 4min for the train.Sianz.I reached sch aroun 8.51am i think.Coz those few days or rather nights i heard lots of scritching sound and i do saw rats running around in the drain.I dun wish to walk tat path bt no choice,i need to walk tat path in order to go to sch n home.ARGH!Hope the rats will go somewhere else.Hahas.

Okay,had discussed the proj 1 after sch.Went to meet jx n hy after tat.Went back home.Wen i sat down n on my lappy,i was so damn pissed off coz my sis agn!!!She didn't clean her part of the room.I was okay wen she used my laptop bt i was pissed wen she nv keep my laptop after the use.She lik threw all the things around loh.Seriously i cannot stand it loh.

I dunno why.After the few nights she spent outside,she became lazier.Seriously n seriously im worried.

Hoo hoo.Tml presentation + cs + captains ball.Let's giv it a best shot. =))

i am who i am
10:19 PM

* Monday, November 3, 2008 *

Delayed tiredness.
Slept at 130am lik tat then woke up around 640.So it's lik 5hrs of slp.I tot i would be v tired bt wont leh.I did not doze off during lectures.I was awake during phy lecture coz i wan to understand wat the calvin was trying to sae.OMG!He really lik chanting loh.And he speaks non stop leh.Tuts then sch ends.Bt i was onli bit tired.

Went to library for the proj 1.Onli until 7plus lik tat then i super tired loh.I was doing the survey until the very last last bits of batt.Wen i finish it,my laptop onli left 3% of batt.Pathetic rite?Hahas.OMG!We stayed until 8plus leh.Reached home 9plus.

So TIRED today.

i am who i am
11:57 PM

* Sunday, November 2, 2008 *

Sometimes i jus want to be pampered.

i am who i am
10:45 PM

* Saturday, November 1, 2008 *

OMG!!!She said smth tat scares and disappoint me.
Pls dun lik tat,please.Wat's so good bout outside?
Here is ur home,ur home.
Dun wish u to leave,please dun leave or dun think bout it le.

i am who i am
10:57 PM