Im thankful for everything u've done for me.Im really thankful.Despite of how i treated u in the past,u wont complaint much.U will jus request for the minimum requirement.I noe tis is unfair for u.
In the past,i always treated u badly (erm 80% of the time).I admit im not good,in fact not good at all.I dun understand u.I dun wan try to understand u.Im selfish.I noe,im selfish.
For most of the time u've been giving in to me.For most of the times though u are concerning bout me,advices tat are good for me,i'll ignore it.Then we'll start the unhappiness.
I noe tat "bad" cant describe me anymore.I noe tat.
Thank god we still had good times together.Thank god u still not mad at me and still befrend wif me.Im really thankful to tat.
Let's maintain at tis lvl.It's great for both of us.
I now sincerely hope tat everything will be great for u. :)
i am who i am
11:26 AM
Thinking back wat happened ytd..............
Izzit myself??? I jus dun wan to forgt u???Coz u gav me lots of good memories.I dun bear to dump all the good times away.I dun wan to be a total stranger to u.I wan u think tat im someone to u.
I really cant bear to forgt u.How i wish,how i wish time can travel to the past.No no no.How i wish i nv went to look for a job last wk.Then there will not be drastic changes.I'll be alone,jus alone.
Wat to do???It's the pathway i've made.I cant run away from reality,i noe i cant.I seriously dunno wat to do now.
The onli thing i shall do is to continue trying forgetting u n count day by day.Anyways,now love life to me is jus a str line.(Or not)
i am who i am
11:35 AM
Actually nth de.Really actually nothing de.I gt my laptop on,as i was bored,i looked at my past (FB & blog).
I really didn't expect it.I really didn't expect my reaction turn out to be lik tat.
I've looked at the past.I saw wat i wrote on FB & blog.I wrote alot bout u.Wen i was reading,my tears were running out.It's been 2 yrs!!!2 yrs!!!Why cant i forgt u and totally like someone else.It's so terrible.I tried so hard forgetting u bt i cant!!! I really cant!!!
I dunno if i regret liking u or not.I jus noe tat liking u makes me feel terrible now even is yrs ago.
Everything is all my fault:
Liking u for making me terrible is my fault;
Waiting for u lik an idiot is my fault;
Always wanting to forgt u bt in the end in vain is my fault;
Looking/recalling back at the past makes me feel terrible is my fault
Im sucha sucha failure.
I cant get myself to hate u.
How i wish i've nv met u.
i am who i am
3:48 PM