Okay. Im a coward. I dun to dare to post it on fb bt I really need to vent out things. I cant think properly now. Headache now. Seriously I feel lik crying. I really really cant take it. I kept thinking bout the past, thinking bout these few wks. I feel so noob, I feel so weak now. Seriously no mood to do anything. Argh~~~ I noe I kept saying bt I really miss him terribly :( Okay. Now I found out tat he actually wished me bday 2 yrs ago. De thing is tat I didnt did de same on his bday. Okay tis doesnt sound lik a big thing bt it actually mean so damn much to me. 2 yrs. 2 yrs onli. Actually not a long period. I can initiate a convo wif him. Simple as tat n why de hell I cant do it?!?!?!?!?! HAIZ!! So did our lost in contact started by me or him. Izzit me tat start tis entire awful journey im facing now? Izzit me hu start ignoring him or him hu tries hard to cut off any ties from me. He's lik drug to me. I cant gt near him, even anything related to him. I'll literally go crazy n cant gt myself out of tis agony situation (lik wat im facing right now) Headache now. Gotta slp soon. Stop thinking too much n go to slp!! I hope... i hope...
